The hot coffee is warm and soothing in my hands as I stand on the patio in the early morning chill. There is something hushed, lovely, and holy about the pre-sunrise time of day. It feels like a gift of time and preparation. The rush of daytime is kept at bay for just a bit. Peace can settle in and soothe, remnants of dreams that mystify or frighten can be looked at and let go, plans can be prayed over, and worries can be trusted into His hands. Itβs sacred to me and I treasure it.
Tucked in under the horizon, the Autumn sun waits in the wings as the moon and stars cling to their last vestiges of dark. Soon she will begin her ascent with just the smallest hint of light tinting the inky sky. The light is coming. It always comes. It always illuminates and brings into focus the mysteries, the blurred edges, and the fears.
From the big tree in my front yard, I hear the hooting of an owl. Itβs haunting, mysterious, and beautiful. Calming, yet eerie. Things may appear still and sleepy in the dark, but itβs actually full of life and activity. I hear the scratching and rustling of night creatures in the Jasmine and tall grasses at the edge of the yard taking advantage of the last moments of the cover of darkness.
The neighborhood begins to wake up as the light, yellow-y pink of the horizon shows itself in the East. I see His hand in the colors that wash the sky in its morning glow. Clouds highlighted in dabs and splashes of gentle color. I imagine God smiling as He paints such beauty for those of us who stop for a minute to look, to feel, to allow ourselves to be wrapped up in His delight and love. He is everywhere. He loves us.
This past week I took myself to Sutter Creek in the Gold Country of California. Itβs been a while since I have taken a solo trip. When my kids were much younger I would go off on my own for a couple of nights to relax, refresh, and do my thing because thatβs how I recharge my batteryβtime alone to simply be, clear my brain, and have conversations with God.
There might not be huge revelations, deep theological dives, or life changing decisions, but there is always renewal and that precious time with Jesus which so easily gets back burner-ed, cut short, or missed by lifeβs demands.
The trip to Sutter Creek wasnβt long, but it required taking roads, some of them small and remote, that I wasnβt familiar with driving. As the date of my trip came closer I started to feel fear and uncertainty. The excitement I felt at getting a little vacation with some delicious food, good coffee, relaxation, and fun shopping in a beautiful area started to sour.
The insidious voices of fear and worry began whispering that it might be better not to go, that the roads were remote and twisty in places, that I might get lost or have car trouble, that someone would know I was alone and bother me, and the list went on of all the things I fear. These voices know the things that scare me and they know why.
As the voice of fear got louder, a beautiful, strong, safe Voice come in quietly, but with power and authority. This Voice reminded me that He is always with me and that I would not be alone on those small, remote roads. His Voice said that there was nowhere I could go that He would not see me and no place I could go that He had not already gone on before me. He whispered to my heart that I was safe, and He was looking forward to time with me. βI can do all thingsβ¦nothing is impossible with Godβ¦He will command His angels concerning me and they will guard me and lift me upβ¦β filled my mind.
I decided to trust God with myself. This is something I have had to choose to do again and again in my 50+ years. Iβve lived through some hard, painful, and terrifying things in my life, as we all have at some point. He has gotten me through every one of them. Not without scars, memories, fear, and issues with trusting people and Him, but Iβm here.
My trip to the Gold Country was just right and perfectly on time. Jesus and I had good conversations and I feel renewed. He gave me the gift of answered prayers, safety, and the confidence and courage in myself that I hadnβt realized Iβd lost. I can do things that feel hard, I am capable, strong, and smart because He strengthens me and holds me to His heart. I can discern His voice and trust Him.
What treasures He has for us when we let go of control and just trust Him with us! Itβs beautiful, freeing, and such a blessing.
Early morning sunlight cheerfully illuminates the cozy kitchen in her cabin by the lake. A hot cup of Paris blend tea keeps her hands toasty. Steamy, hot oatmeal with brown sugar, walnuts, and golden raisins awaits. The embers from last nightβs fire snicker and glow, still giving off a bit of heat.
January at the cabin is chilly and peaceful. Dewdrops glint off the reeds standing guard at the edge of the lake. Sunlight sparkles off the frosted needles of the old pine that has stood as protector over the cabin for as long as she can remember. The many creatures that call the lake their home are still here prowling, hunting, and sunning themselves. The pace and rhythm of life slow a bit as Nature cozies into the slumber of Winter.
Charity feels her bunched-up shoulders and neck relax and release as she sits in the silence. Her tense body and racing mind need a reprieve. This is where sheβll find it. βHelp me find my way back to You,β she whispers.
Charity has walked with Him for a long time, and she knows His voice, the gentle nudge that tugs at her soul. The songs and murmurs that whisper holy, divine things into her heart, speaking healing over her. βCome awayβ¦β they say.
Dressed in layers with hiking boots and a hat, Charity heads out for a walk around the lake. Filled with anticipation at the treasures and surprises she will come across, her heart is happy, and her steps are light. The crisp wintry air is rejuvenating as she breathes in deep and long, inhaling peace and exhaling heaviness. The mysterious, divine exchange sheβs been waiting for over these past few months. Rest. Peace. Hope.
As the leaf-strewn path veers down and to the right, she hears the lapping waves on the bank of the lake, moved along by a brisk, bright breeze. Rhythmic and soothing, the sound comforts and calms.
Further along, sunlight filters through the pine branches, leaving lovely patches of light and shadow along her route. A reminder that light always pierces the darkness. Nothing is hidden from Him. He will always find her, even when her life-journey leads through valleys and twisty paths that seem hopelessly dim and gloomy. Those who follow Him shall not walk in darknessβ¦1
Around a sharp twist in the path, a small outcropping of rocks hugs the edge of the water. Reeds and other water plants grow along one side, creating the perfect hiding spot for crawdads and other small lake creatures. Footprints in the squishy mud at the edge of the lakeβraccoons or perhaps an opossum looking for a late-night nibble? Remnants of red, orange-y shells confirm itβthe circle of life.
Sitting on the rocks, Charity soaks in the warmth of the wintry sun, inhaling that earthy lake smell that feels like home. His presence is strong here. The sights, sounds, and scents of the trees and lake are like beautiful gifts waiting for her to unwrap. How He knows her! The One who created all things hand-picked bits of joy, delight, and unexpected encounters with Himself to remind her that all is well. She is loved, and never alone.
Moving along, Charity tucks into her heart all the carefully placed blessings and treasures she encounters along the way. Reminders for when life gets messy and chaotic. The beauty of a sweet purple mountain flower that stubbornly holds on despite the cold slumber of winter. Antics of the scrub jays and squirrels dashing through blankets of pine needles, scolding each other, and making her laugh. Whiffs of old-Earth scentsβtimeless and eternal. Everything that speaks to Charityβsafety, love, and being fully knownβwas intentionally scattered along her path this morning by the Father.
Back at the cabin, she relaxes on the deck in her comfy lounger, hot cocoa taking the chill from her hands. Her time with Jesus this morning was exactly what she neededβrefreshed with treasured surprises and blessings to keep close to her heart.
As the sounds of the mountain lake stir, shush, and float over her, she gently drifts off to sleep in the winter sun.
There is a little chapel in the Redwoods. It is deep in the forest along a narrow, off-the-beaten-path trail. Tucked underneath a canopy of clustered old-growth trees, the forest has accepted the chapel as one of its own, the way it is sheltered and hidden away. The silence of this little grove is like a holy hush as only nature and the Divine speak here.
Gentle, filtered light bathes the steep roof, highlighting the moss and lichen that cover it.
Tall stained-glass windows with cracked and weathered wooden sills welcome the sunrise in the East. The light casts a holy glow of muted purples, blues, and reds along the simple wooden pews and the rough-hewn altar.
Hand-carved double doors, slightly off-kilter, creak in welcome to the one who enters.
His Spirit dwells here in this simple, hidden chapel; a palpable presence of sacred mystery. Those who seek refuge, peace, and rest find itβa Divine invitation. Hurts are healed and tears are caught, wounds are bound, and answers sought. Holy breath speaks life and rebukes those things that have no place here. This is holy ground.
Ahhh, the things these old trees have seen and heard as weary wanderers discover the little chapel in the woods. They are drawn by Divine whispers and the need to find solace and love, the need to find Him. Chains breaking, hearts mended, victory shouted, and deep pain healed. Nature and the Divine intertwined in a holy and sacred dance of healing and peace. The Healer enthroned in a simple old chapel nestled in the midst of His creation.
Do you talk to Jesus? Where is your place to spend time with Him?
Nature is my spot where I feel His presence so fully and completely.
Sometimes I sit quietly and listen to Him speak to me through a brilliant pink sunset.
Sometimes I walk with Him and pour out all that overwhelms me and weighs so heavy on my soul.
Sometimes I talk to Him out loud, sometimes through tears.
Sometimes I just say thank you for all the beauty and good things in my lifeβeven if it’s hard to find something lovely at the moment.
What about you? Do you hear Him speak to you audibly?
Do you experience Him in nature, at church, in the kitchen with your coffee before everyone else is up, on your drive to work, in the carpool pick up line?
I’d love to know the way He speaks to you and where you experience Him. It is fascinating the way we are each created to experience Him so differently.
If you found yourself relaxing in this hammock, a fall breeze ruffling your hair, would you lean into it and let yourself day dream?
Would you nap, read a book, just be in nature?
I think day dreaming is healing and peaceful. Allowing your mind to drift where it will and give permission to your wildest dreams and wishes, no expectations, no stiff parameters, just freedomβmaking room for Jesus to speak to you, heal you, give discernment and wisdom.
There is freedom to hope and hope is a very powerful thing.
We lovers of Autumn have a sixth sense about us, a knowing when that first revelation of summerβs end has arrived.
It is felt on the skin in that barely discernable nip and twinge of air, charged with the slightest chill; awareness that the atmosphere has changed just a smidge.
Autumnβs scent is unique and mischievous. Earthy and deep; wise, pungent, and bold in the way brown leaf tips, restless trees, and fading flowers bend and drop to the Earth, daring the one watching to stop them; to impede the ancient progress of a slow, yet lovely descent into quiet and rest.
That spritely spurt of wind, which tosses and dances fallen leaves and finished flowers round and round, is delightful. What is it about piling up crispy, browned leaves then dashing them about, flinging them from orderly piles into random and untamed flurries of color? A new beginning; a tossing and mixing up of the old, lazy routine into something new; a plan to disrupt the status quo and wait patiently through the winter, as that plan takes form and substance. Somehow the chaos of it is lovely and energizing, part of the ritual. It is one more wild streak before the settling and simmering of autumn moves on to the mystery and silent brooding of winter.
The discerning observer will witness Natureβs response to the shift from the indolent, dog days of summer to autumnβs call to let go. The song of quiet purpose and intention, as Mother Earth whispers itβs time to fold in, cozy up, and allow rest to perform its miracles and the deep, sweet slumber of winter to wait in the wings.
There is something inspiring and invigorating in this call to purposeful letting go, an anticipation. Is it the definitive color changes and that unmatched fall scent in the air that feels like a new beginning? Is it the crisp sensation of fall air as one breathes it in?
Welcome Autumn! Come and show off your colors and dare us to think about the dead or dying places that we need to let fall; not with sadness or fear; but with anticipation that a season of silent regrouping, where new life starts to bud, will soon break free with the coming of spring. Itβs coming, and it will be glorious!